chai lai. <3

Went to an elephant sanctuary today... wanted to go to a more ethical place cause it's known that this industry can be brutal :/ Hopefully this is one. Still felt like I was a little in my head about everything at times. One neat thing, though—Chai Lai Orchid partners with “Daughters Rising,” an org founded in 2013 to prevent the sex trafficking of girls from Myanmar and Thailand. They hire them here and focus on empowering them through education and experience, hospitality and economic independence, hoping to help break the cycle.

Anyway, first time meeting Chai Lai. (: This is my nervous-but-actually-in-awe-face lol.


We got to bathe her & play with her. she is a baby—5 years old! Elephants are pretty dang cool. God is creative. (:

After that, we cruised along down a river on a bamboo raft. It was tied together by tires—so much creativity over here with simple things... I love.

visual update.

I'm back! & with my laptop (thank you for praying!) I actually drove (haha😬👍🏼) to the mall to pick up my laptop this past weekend. Although it was around $1k, I'm really grateful for the extra amount raised from the fundraising.. it covered it. Thank you so much ♡

Instead of boring you with my writing, I decided to do a picture update since so many things happened, haha. :P

laptop drama.

I know it’s been a while... my retina display screen mysteriously cracked last week and it’s been in the shop. 😭 Sadly... even though it’s brand new, it’s not covered under warranty so it’s gunna be pretty expensive. #sigh

I think I have come to accept it for the most part since it was out of my control, but ya.. if you could pray that it comes back before next tuesday, that would be much appreciated. I’m going to be flying to Bangkok to help another org. out with their website & graphic design materials & so having my laptop back would be awesome.. haha.. thanks for checking in and continuing to pray while I’m over here. I can definitely feel them 🙏🏼

home of the swallow.


B&G introduced me to a super cool chick (Jen) & I got to go with her to visit Home of the Swallow today ♡ They're an organization that exists to help disadvantaged women who have had unplanned pregnancies (due to different situations), and are facing cultural, religious, economic, or family pressures to abort or reject their child. Through a safe environment that provides opportunities of education, counseling, life-skill training, job-skill training, parenting classes, and spiritual and emotional support, they aim to empower these women to become loving, independent mothers to their children. #takenfromtheirwebsite

It was legit ♡ and really encouraging. One thing I've come to appreciate about the culture here (or maybe it's more asian culture in general?)—it cultivates a mindset of community... versus in America, it very much feels more individualistic and everyone sees things as 'mine' or 'yours' and people typically just look out for themselves (or perhaps this is just me haha). I mean I know there are positives and negatives to any culture, but I've come to appreciate the more "communal" view vs. the more individualistic view. I'm encouraged by this Home and these women who are healing and growing together. ♡


Honestly I didn't want to bust out my camera and take pictures because it just felt... idno, intrusive and disrespectful? So I only took a couple, but above is the process of making the jewelry and the top photo is what it looks like (: It's a starfish necklace because of the story. Have you heard? (If you have, feel free to skip haha)

A young girl was walking along a beach upon which thousands of starfish had been washed up during a terrible storm. When she came to each starfish, she would pick it up, and throw it back into the ocean. People watched her with amusement.

She had been doing this for some time when a man approached her and said, “Little girl, why are you doing this? Look at this beach! You can’t save all these starfish. You can’t begin to make a difference!”

The girl seemed crushed, suddenly deflated. But after a few moments, she bent down, picked up another starfish, and hurled it as far as she could into the ocean. Then she looked up at the man and replied, “Well, I made a difference to that one!”

The old man looked at the girl inquisitively and thought about what she had done and said. Inspired, he joined the little girl in throwing starfish back into the sea. Soon others joined, and all the starfish were saved.

— Adapted from The Star Thrower
by Loren C. Eiseley

Anywho—I've ordered and looked through catalogs back home that support women overseas, but it feels very humbling to actually be in the same room as them—and to be allowed to be a part of their community and journey. ♡

just a few random things...


P.Tui (a sweet, Thai co-worker from Cornerstone) drove me to City Hall to get my work permit today. I really enjoyed our convos—I tried to practice my thai and she tried to practice her english... there was lots of laughing haha. Learning thai has been tough but good... I def don't like branching out and doing things I know I'll be a turtle at, or potentially feel humiliated in haha... butttttt I'm in Thailand... Carpe diem! (......thai translation  coming soon lol) Anyway—I digress. So we get to the government building and walk up all the stairs and walk past a DMV-looking office and finally sit down... P.Tui gives the girl all the paperwork... but she comes back and tells us that it's not ready yet. #facepalm... Thailand work permit, we coming for you next week.

Last night, the Cornerstone staff went to a movie outing & saw Black Panther! I had no idea what it was about but I really liked it! I liked the soundtrack, the costume design, but most of all, I liked the underlying message of branching out to help people, even if it means sacrificing the safety of yourself or your tribe/people. Oh & I got some mentos. :P #amazingtexture


Double lastly, Ronald makes me laugh. #contexualization

Lastly, I have not gotten a haircut in soOo long because it's been so long since I've been in LA (shoutout to Joy! Best haircutter in the world :P ) So Grace invited me to go with her to hers! It was awesome & only 450baht! So like... $15ish? So good, Nick was great (: I wish I took a selfie with Grace after, though... instead I took this awkward photo of myself.


weekend fun.


Went training for the 5k yesterday with the Cornerstone runners..... @ 7am. (I think that my jetlag actually helped out in this instance...) But I'm sore today haha. Afterwards, we ate breakfast togeth & then Peang offered to take me to the Maya mall (pic above) on her motorbike since it was on her way home!! 

I know it was super dangerous.... because i didn't have a helmet and i also took this video... but yeah. It happened. & it was awesome.

I stayed around Maya mall for a while, but actually really loved walking around it and exploring by myself.


I really loved the street art, but the actual physical pieces of art were really... interesting?? Haha... and then it was recently V-day so that sign says "happy valentine's day! we have "heart" for sale (and lung + kidney + liver + eye) With corresponding stickers hahahah loved those. I saw an "Anti-Cellulite Coffee Scrub Bar" and also ate some shave ice with strawberries and loads of syrup. #sugaronsugaronsugar

Earlier I found a mom & pop bookstore that I really liked & I spent all my baht there... literally I was short 50baht at the counter and this lady behind me covered me!! I probably looked like a hot mess lol—trying to speak broken-weird-accented-thai and figure out what was going on. She was super sweet. Anywho, I looked down at my phone and realized it was about to die!! Bob and Grace were out of town and I was far away from home—I freaked out for a second because I was like omg... I have no money... I can't speak thai.. if my phone dies then I won't have a way to communicate OR grab an uber back home!!  But my phone made it (whew) and so I had to take a picture of the ride home... because I felt so relieved. First time taking Uber. In Thailand. Haha, never would've thought...


some turkeys, some bunnies & a labyrinth.


Grace has every Tues off and so her and Bob make time to rest and recharge together for a part of the day. (#respect!) So today I tagged along and we went to a Jesuit Center of Solitude.. it was really neat. Practicing mindfulness is super hard for me at times, but being there helped ease my spirit. The bunnies also helped ease my spirit lol. Bob brought some carrots to feed them :D There were also turkeys around... they intrigued me but have you ever seen one up close?! Kinda scary and ugly haha... and they make crazy noises... I really pondered for a second if it actually sounds like a "gobble".... did you know that animal noises are different in different languages?! I learned that last time I was here lol. So what does the turkey say? .... Ring-ding-ding-ding-dingeringeding... jk lol. That's what the fox says. Aaaaaand I digress. Forreal though, it was really peaceful.


I think my favorite place was the labyrinth... there was a whole written thing about how it was practiced in ancient times with meditation and mindfulness and it helped guide your time spent walking through to get to the center. I spent about an hour there... stilling my spirit and talking and listening to God. In this season, if I am honest, I actually feel pretty broken inside. Sometimes I just wake up with this empty feeling and a heart full of anxiety. Being overseas, I expected that I would be at full capacity, serving away and full of energy... I broke down a couple of times because I felt guilty and also felt the tension of what i "should" be feeling/doing versus how I am actually feeling inside. Grace has been a source of love and light and encouraged me that for them as well... being overseas brought out a lot of brokenness and blindspots, but over time God used those places of hurt as a catalyst of growth and depth... and if we don't run from the pain/anxiety... or numb it or distract ourselves from it... but sit in it long enough to work through it with Him... healing will come. I def want to believe that, as hard as it is to feel at times. Anyway, thanks for reading and for journeying. ♡


I'm thankful they invited me to come here... it's definitely a place of peace. Forreal though, even the ants weren't moving. #meditatingants #meditANTing

first day


Started first day @ Cornerstone! Everyone was super warm & welcoming. Since I work from home and am by myself a lot... I was a little nervous how it would be in-office... but it's awesome!! Dang. People here all have a heart for people and seeing them find healing—they are great listeners, gentle spirits, warm hearts + all working toward one goal. Working for myself has its perks, but being in a community of like-minded people is pretty dang sweet. 

Also speaking of community... they have a team running in this "Run for Relief" 5k, to raise funds for Internally Displaced People (IDPs) in Burma who have to flee with only a pair of sandals on their feet. People can run in their sandals for the race and receive a special pair too, I think? They invited me to run and my first thought was 'nahhhh, i'll be your cheerleader!' But as I think about it more... I think it would be kinda cool?! If I don't die from 1. the heat & 2. running. My heart is like what. is. exercise. Seriously. But no bigger picture and not thinking about myself, i think it's really awesome. ♡


Anywho, I went crazy with decorating my desk and brought in the two guys up above in the top pic. Meet Nit Noy (pronounced neat-noi... which means small/tiny in thai... although idno if that is actually the right context... but I just like how it sounds lol) ...& Earl. (:

aaaand meet my lovely office mates (: Yui & Alicia. ♡